A pregnant and touring JHUD

Reports are flying around that my girl Jennifer Hudson is with child! I can only hope that things are looking brighter and more fulfilling for this awesomely talented woman who has recently suffered great loss in her life. There is joy to be found in nurturing relationships, as she is engaged to be married to David Otunga (PUNK from I Love New York) and certainly through developing new life. And speaking of New York... looks like she has a brand new 'reality show' coming up on VH1. I love her sassy attitude and raw over-the-top bitchiness but enough already! LOL Now back to topic... JENNIFER HUDSON could be a Mommy soon and that puts a smile on my face. Building family will be good for her and not taint her career, I believe, since she is viewed as a good girl...a wholesome 'old soul' of a woman. I wish her well and I'm waiting on my wedding invite in the mail. I had the wonderful pleasure of seeing her in concert the other night by the way!!! Robin Thicke opened the show (aaaand that's about all I wanna say about him. LOL He's OK, I'm just not a big fan.) Anyway, Jennifer did a great job for her first tour. Had peeps in the audience sing along on some songs. Some of them might actually need a record deal. Others were painful to listen to. She enjoyed hearing fans make a fool of themselves. LOL I enjoyed it too. She was very personable from stage (which looked like a crap with nothin more than a metal staircase thrown in the middle). I'ma need somebody to invest some money into her stage set. Low budget tour at it's finest. But indeed a nice effort for the first-time out. Anybody else seen the show or got thoughts? She is denying th pregnancy, by the way... hmmmmm

I hate it when you call me "Pa"!

I am a friendly guy. I have made several acquaintances and endearing friendships through cyberspace via social networking sites, instant messenger etc.. you get the picture! And after chatting for a while it's SOMETIMES nice to exchange phone numbers to become more accessible to those you have come to be comfy with and find mutual interests, lifestyles, or mindsets. Granted... this practice has backfired on me. Often dudes or ladies get tooo comfortable and want to text or call me at all hours - sending me those idiotic chain texts or asking me "What you doin?" at 3:00 in the frickin morning! I'm sleep, fool!!! Anyway, another such issue has popped up. Met this young dude. Wasn't tryna date him, get with him, sleep with him, NOTHING! Just being a nice guy since he seemed sane and mature. How bout this fella sends me a text almost every hour on the hour?? And what makes it worse, is that he calls me "Pa" like he invented the term! The first time I was called "Pa" (by someone else) was cute, even sexy. I liked it and even adopted it into my vocab when speaking to certain peeps. But this is waaaaaay outta hand now. LOL



This is an example of a convo we had yesterday:



Z "wat u doin pa?"



ME "nothing. at work"



Z "o ok pa. howz the day goin pa?"



ME "busy but it's cool"



Z "thatz gud. so whatz for lunch pa?"



ME "haven't thought about it yet"



Z "eat something for me 2 pa. lol"



((I don't respond as I'm annoyed now))



Z "so pa what u doin after work pa?"



((Again I ignore him))



Z "well make sure you call me when you get off pa"


((I did not call))


This is partial convo as he texts me through the evening and into the night asking me what I'm doing. I should just make him sign up to follow me on TWITTER!!! I ain't tryna be rude but DAMN!!

Not too far

Just updating to say I'm still around. Haven't commented and haven't blogged either (DUH). But I just wanted to say hello basically. Alot is going on. Some good.....some bad. But I'm alive and any day above ground is a good day. I'm making it and things can only get better. Right?

Rise and Shine

When I woke up this morning, my mind immediately went back to the stress that I laid down with last night and I was tempted to just lay there and sulk for a minute. But something came over me very quickly. I said to myself, "Self, get your ass out of this bed and have a good day!"

I'm sure we have heard so many times that it's counter-productive to start your day with a negative outlook. But having heard that isn't quite enough. It takes a change of mind. A change of heart. A determination that I'm going to look this day in the eye and command it to be exciting, fulfilling, and productive!

So I hit the floor with an expectation of a great day. Sure, everything is not where it ought to be in my life. My self-proclaimed issues and problems are still there but they don't have to ruin my day or wear me out emotionally, physically, or mentally! I've taken control of my day.

As you approach your mornings, spend time in meditation or prayer. Center yourself. Try not to sleep til the last possible minute. Look at it as an opportunity to effect change in something or someone and enjoy EVERY day. Rise and Shine!

DAMN! It's only Thursday

Where the hell is Friday? I am so sick of lookin at these co-workers and this prison cell of a cubicle already. This is the longest week EVER. UGH!!! I swear to Peter Pan I'm bout to pull one of these numbers (see video)! Well, at least he didn't go COMPLETELY postal....but DAYUM. His ass is probably STILL lookin for another job. LMAO

Let me KISS it

I absolutely love foreplay. Some guys overlook it in hopes of gettin right down to bizness. LOL I admit there is a time and place for the quickie but when there will be a hot freak session, I likes to take my time and get my mouth, and other body parts, wet! For me, kissing is a huge turn on!! OHH DAMN I love kissin (and not just the lips). Alternating and switching it up and gettin tongues involved is good to ME!. Yes indeed, my dudes....kissin turns me the fuck on. Told you that I was very oral. And these are my kissin lips:


I found a list of many different types of kissin. If you are with someone who loves to kiss...try something new and ignite the passion to another level. I picked out my faves.


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All Over Kiss - It begins with kissing your partner's forehead, moving down slowly to the nose. Tenderly, with an aggressive feeling, give your partner your best kiss right on the lips. Next, move your way down and continue with your own imagination. *OH, HELL YEAH!!*




Back Kisses - Remove your partners shirt and have them lie down on their stomach. Sit comfortably over your partners lower back and start kissing from the neck all the way down their back, while softly licking & breathing where you have kissed. This will give your partner cold shivers and it is very exciting.




Earlobe Kiss - Gently sip and suck the earlobe. Avoid louder sucking noises as ears are sensitized noise detectors.


Tongue Kiss - While French kissing your partner, gently suck their tongue while it's in your mouth. This produces a wonderful, erotic feeling for both!



Eye Kiss - Hold your partner's head with both hands and slowly move their head in the direction you wish your kiss to go... then slowly kiss up towards your partner's eyes and give them a tender kiss on top of their closed eyes.



Finger Kiss - While laying together gently suck on their fingers. This can be very seductive and pleasurable.



Foot Kiss - An erotic and romantic gesture. It may tickle, but relax and enjoy it! To give a toe kiss by gently suck the toes and then lightly kissing the foot. It helps to gently massage the base of the foot while performing the kiss.



Forehead Kiss - The "motherly" kiss or "just friends" kiss. The forehead kiss can be a comforting kiss to anyone. Simply brush your lips lightly across the crown of their head.



French Kiss - This is the most popular type of kiss that involves kissing with an open mouth while your tongues touch each other's tongues.



Fruity Kiss - Take a small piece of fruit and place between your lips and kiss your partner. Nibble one half of the piece of fruit while he or she nibble the other until it breaks in half, allowing the juice to run into your mouths.



Hickey Kiss - The object is not to draw blood, but to gently leave a mark that will prove your interlude was not a dream. This is often included in erotic foreplay.



Hot and Cold Kiss - Lick your partner's lips so that they're warm, and then gently blow on them. The sudden cold blast makes for a sensual explosion, and they will often try it on you next, as well as get very passionate.



Ice Kiss - Take a piece of ice in your mouth and hold it on your tongue until it melts, then sneak up on your partner and quickly lick their cheek or neck. It provides a cold but great feeling.

Lick Kiss - Just before kissing, gently run your tongue along you partners lip whether it be the top or bottom one depending on the position of your lips. Very sensual.

Lip Sucking Kiss - When kissing gently suck on their lower lip. This can be very exciting.

Neck Nibble Kiss - Gently nibble up and down your partners neck. End with a gentle kiss on the lips.

Nip Kiss - This type of kiss has to be done carefully, but when done correctly can create a wonderful effect on your partner with a very erotic sensation. While kissing your partner, ever so gently nibble on their lips. You must be very careful not to bite to hard or hurt your partner. This kiss should only be done with someone that you've kissed a few times before, otherwise you may shock your partner.

Romantic Kiss - Look at your partner with passion, then gently move in for a kiss with your lips half open. As soon as you make contact, close your lips slowly. Open and close your lips three times then move away. They'll definitely want more!

Suck Kissing - A seductive type of kiss. Instead of French Kissing with your mouth open, while your partner's lips are parted suck on their top our bottom lip with your own, just for a second or two. Then go back to another type of kiss or try the other lip.

Shoulder Kiss - Simply come from behind, embrace her, and kiss the top of her shoulder. This is a sensual, loving kiss.

Surprise Kissing - This type of kiss is done when your partner is lying down on a sofa or the ground, either asleep or just lying with their eyes closed. Quietly approach your partner and place a small, very gentle kiss on their lips. Intensify the kiss until your partner opens their eyes or awakens.

Strawberry Kiss - Also known as the Fruiti-licious kiss. Eat a strawberry and kiss your partner, leaving a sweet taste in their mouth. It's fun and a really cute way to "feed" each other.

The Whipped Cream Kiss - Dip your finger into some cool whip or whipped cream of your choice. Lick it off slowly, then embrace your partner and kiss them deeply letting their tongue slip over yours for a wonderfully sweet kiss. It's very seductive and passionate.

Trickle Kiss - Take a sip of a favourite drink and trickle it slowly into partner's mouth while kissing.

Vacuum Kiss - While kissing open-mouthed, slightly suck in as if you were sucking the air from your partners mouth. This is a playful kiss.

Wet Kiss - Once you have been kissing enough that both of your lips are wet, with your mouth barely open, gently rub back and forth, up and down, around and around.

Hot, right? *wink*

What about us?

Maybe I'm trippin but I am pissed off at Shine. I really don't have much room to be since he and I don't officailly date and have never expressed any real feelings beyond friendship but I found out some disturbing news about him yesterday evening.

HE'S DATING THIS CHICK FROM MY CHURCH!

I really have to sort all this out in my head. From what I was innocently told by one of our friends, they just started seeing each other. But where I find issue is that he and I have become very very good friends and we flirt feverishly and stuff and there is no way he could have possibly figured I wouldn't find out, right? I mean seriously! Like I said, she goes to church with me! I know I'm way off base even having a problem with his decision. As it is, I am kinda "seeing" Soldierboy again but I've been holding myself back while I sorted feelings for the two of them. I always knew Shine doesn't want to be openly gay and have anything get back to his peeps about he's dating a dude. I understand that first-hand and would never divulge his private dealings! I guess he chose to go the cover-up route and date this woman. She's sweet and all but I just have these thoughts in the recesses of my mind that wish he and I would take a shot at being together.

I'm gonna leave him alone. I refuse to be messy or catty and try to ruin their chances at something significant. That's NOT me at all. If he wants to date a woman, then cool with me. We will be friends still but I really hope he doesn't just neglect to tell me from his own mouth that he is seeing her. What's the big secret? I thought we were better than that.....

Am I trippin??????